This is me...

Here I am, this is me. I love basketball but love being free. I love feeling great about myself but struggle with issues everyday. I try to hide the things I am ashamed of yet show the world the attributes that I love. This is me, and I am only human. I work hard and love my job yet I play harder and try to live life to the fullest. My boyfriend is my bestfriend and my family and friends are more important to me than money. I set goals that I rarely achieve yet if I put my mind to something I will succeed. I am a strong woman but often I am scared. I love attention but thrive on getting to know people. I have a passion for writing and enjoy telling stories and most of all, I love to dream. I keep secrets, I have secrets, and I sometimes wish I didn't know secrets. I forget often but I try my hardest no matter what. I have set out to empower youth and in turn have been empowered. I love, I feel and I am. This is me~

Go Go magic feet

I need to start running - exercising - walking - or even moving. lol. I need some type of fun motivating sport or activity to keep me interested and committed. Me and a good friend of mine always try to plan out or schedules together - the latest goal was to do a triathlon and I completely failed at that. Basketball is still fun, but I am not as serious about it anymore since college is done - I was thinking of starting to play ultimate so i went and watched some friends play and in a matter of 10 minutes i saw 2 people roll their ankles - um yah i'll pass on the crazy dog catching game! ha ha ha. My other idea was to start up a baseball team for the summer - have everyone all on a team - being active and having fun - wanna play!?!? haha. However that isn't until like 4 months away! What the hell am I going to do in the mean time??? For some reason, I can come up with these ideas but just can't bother to do them. Arvin on the other hand goes for runs and is motivated as hell, I just want to punch him in the face. Motivated people annoy me. lol.
How is it that someone gets motivated? stays motivated? likes being motivated? Because seriously, I just can't deal! He'll ask if I wanna go for a run - but usually its always when im busy.. you know reading or watching TV! I tried a personal trainer last year - but its awkward when its a guy - maybe if it was a girl... hmmm new idea! haha. I bought a dog and said i would take him for walks - but he gets too cold so I can't do that.. maybe in the summer time......
If only life was like art, in the morning instead of looking in the mirror, I draw what I would like to look like today, my hair, makeup, body shape, clothes, everything, and just like that - there I was, done up and ready just like a character in a book.... if only~
But for now - i'll keep searching for my passion - cause somewhere between now and last year its gone - hmmm.. mission 1 - find passion - go go magic mind.

Month by Month

I am tired - i can't even deny it. i am so tired that I actually was relaxed and fell asleep while getting my eyebrows and legs waxed... HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE????????????
I have decided that I am goign to try to go away for a weekend - somewhere nice and relaxing - or maybe paint my bedroom! lol!
I think Timex has been let down (a little buddy of mine) because I haven't been writing, so i thought i would just shoot this one off to let everyone know I am alive and kicking !!!!